As a mathematician and physicist, I have always been drawn to the concepts of control and command. From the simple beauty of the Pythagorean theorem to the vast unknowns of the cosmos, these two forces present themselves in various forms throughout the universe. For me, the idea of exercising control over the unbridled chaos of the universe is both mesmerizing and terrifying.
On a personal level, my own awareness of my mortality has given me an appreciation for the transient nature of the universe and a desire to live life to the fullest. In this sense, having patience, understanding how to respond to situations, and being mindful of the consequences of my actions all help in strengthening my sense of control over life's complexity. This idea of exercising control extends beyond my life, but into our greater understanding of the cosmos— for it is only through mastery of fundamental forces, such as gravity, that we can explore their deeper secrets.
On a deeper level, I have often viewed the concept of command as a battle between two infinitely self-contradicting powers: absolute control and absolute chaos. On one hand, one may strive to develop a deep sense of control over the universe—to contain the unexplored and contain the unpredictable. On the other hand, one may also recognize that ultimate control is impossible—the universe is an undefinable, unpredictable entity, ever changing, ever fluxing, governed by an unknowable force. Ultimately, one must find a balance between the two, lest one become consumed by the unyielding power of chaos or the constrictive power of control—for if one does not, then any action or reaction may become meaningless or fruitless.
For me, this concept of command has been a source of great joy and terror, a balance of exploration and limits. While I may never understand the full complexities of the universe, I have discovered that there are certain constants in life—such as love, friendship, and the pursuit of knowledge— that bring me comfort during times of uncertainty. Through these, I have gained the power to better understand the chaotic nature of our universe and its limits, allowing me to gain a foothold in what was previously an unconquerable arena. This has been both a blessing and a curse, as it gives me the power of exerting control over the uncontrollable, yet it still leaves me forever chasing control while its power forever slips just out of reach.