When I was much younger, I developed a fear of the unknown. Living in an uncertain world, I always found solace in the predictability and constancy of mathematical equations. However, when I immersed myself in the fantastical works of H.P. Lovecraft, I discovered a new level of fear of the unknown. Lovecraft's tale of cosmic horror, of mysterious creatures beyond the veil of human comprehension, made me question the limits of reality. Although I had always found comfort in my logical mind, I realized that life could sometimes be filled with the unexpected.
This fear is something I have only come to understand recently. While certain unknown beings can be extremely dangerous, I have learned that stepping into the unfamiliar can also lead to extraordinary opportunities. After all, if we never take risks on what we do not understand, then we are limited to existing within the boundaries of our own comfort zone. To truly understand the world, we must challenge ourselves to pursue the unfamiliar.
This idea has been repeated throughout literature and history, of course. But it is something that I have found particularly meaningful in my own life. When I discovered the joy of fly fishing, for instance, I felt a rush of adrenaline as I stepped onto a small boat and cast out my line into the unknown. Although I had never been fishing before, I stepped out of my comfort zone and was rewarded with astonishingly beautiful sunrises, delicious trout, and a sense of peace that I had never experienced before.
In fact, this idea has transcended my hobbies and activities. As I have studied mathematics and physics, I have discovered a constant curiosity of how they interact with the world around me. By using mathematical equations to describe the world, I have gained a greater respect and understanding of what I don't know. I take risks when I pursue mathematical theories, testing out hypotheses despite the odds of being wrong.
In each of these cases, I have learned to step into the unfamiliar and embrace it with no fear. This courage has helped me to better understand the world around me, and to further pursue the constancy and predictability of mathematics as a source of comfort in a seemingly chaotic world. Whether it be in my hobbies, my studies, or my explorations of the unknown, the fear of the unfamiliar has become a powerful motivating force that guides me along my journey. By conquering my apprehension and embracing the unknown, I am able to more fully understand the mysteries of the world around me.